Thursday, 26 February 2015

There is no ending.....

Some philosophical mumblings.....    My blogs starting to go quiet now as I'm running out of things to write now I'm maintaining.  I've written about my journey and experiences along the way, but now life is just ticking along, and this is it - there's nothing new to say.  My journey with my band will never be finished as its a lifelong change that needs maintaining.... there is no end... but this is it now, I know what needs to be done and I know how to do it (whether or not I make the right choice is another matter), does that make sense?!?!  

I could and maybe should get some more fill in order that I can loose those last 5kg (11lb), but then my band would feel really tight, I'd have many stuck moments, wouldn't be able to comfortably eat out which would affect our social life, and would probably be quite miserable - is 5kg worth that?  Some people might say by not loosing the 5kg to ultimate goal I have failed..... what do you think?

I can buy clothes of the shelf now and don't have to shop in outsize stores, I can buy nice things, that are in fashion and know that I look nice, which empowers me.  I'm not skinny, I'm never the smallest person in company, but I'm not always the biggest anymore, and that feels good too.  I can sit comfortably in an aeroplane seat without the seatbelt being pulled to its limit and can have the snack table down flat too.  I can go on the waterpark chutes with the kids if I choose and know that I won't get stuck in the ring and feel every bounce and knock on the way down.  I can wear skirts and dresses and not have my thighs chaff, and I can wear a swimming costume and not feel out of place - to me that all rings of success!

My apron belly I hate, but I could take the steps to have surgery to remove it.... and maybe one day I will, I shall see.  Maybe, one day soon or in the future I'll make a concerted effort and loose the 5kg that are hanging around, I shall see - but for now I think I am done!

Well, I'll leave you all with a funny pic:

Hope you are all travelling well, speak soon x

Thursday, 5 February 2015

Friday humour..... oops 6 days late posting!!

Some appropriate Friday humour:

Ha, Ha.... made me giggle!  Well its two weeks since my last weigh-in and I've stayed exactly the same at 77.6kg..... have been eating relatively well sticking to around 1000 calories, although have had bank holiday weekend which involved more eating and drinking than usual!  Had a stuck moment yesterday due to making poor food choices - but is a good reminder that my band is there and working.

My exercise however has been really poor!  You'll recall that I hurt my back at start of Jan, well I'm still having issues with it now.  I'm seeing a chiro and hoping it sorts itself out soon, but haven't been going zumba because I'd struggle.  There have been no netball games for the last 2 weeks as well due to bank holidays etc so all I've been doing is dog walking.  Am considering a dry February..... just considering mind you!

Well, the end is in sight...... kids return to school on Monday!  Some routine can return to the Sleat house, although saying that I think I'll miss having them around.  There pretty good kids really - so am fortunate.

Holly has had her hair done, and is now a blonde.... must say looks really nice!  Growing up so fast.... where's my baby gone...  Of for an assessment with Harvey now, hopefully will find out once and for all if/what learning difficulties he has - watch this space.